Tales of a Delectable Redhead

This feels fucking fantastic.

I lost 10 pounds this week or at least somewhere in the past month at least.

I have been really sick this week, mostly of my own doing. I got kind of worried yesterday because it's been about 7 days since I have been able to hold down food. I get sick a lot and I can't sleep. I almost called up my psychiatrist friend and asked her to prescribe me something for my nerves.

It came quite out of nowhere, I didn't know I was melting down until it was too late. The key to a meltdown is to immerse yourself in it, don't fight it. Yesterday, I went to the gym and worked out all my aggression in two hours during work. It felt great, for the first time in 3 months, I felt like myself.

It's embarrassing to talk about having a breakdown, because a lot of the time you can't really explain it. I don't know what caused it, I was just trying to juggle too many things at once. Today, I am feeling pretty normal today. The thing that was troubling me kind of faded out. I stopped fighting the inevitable and accepted it.

But it's definitely left me with this feeling that I need to disappear for awhile. I need to sort myself out, create new goals, and work on them.

posted by Betty @ 4:38 PM